rousing to a sonic boom
i confuse it with the daily rumble
of the traffic on canal
emerging from the holland tunnel
myself, wrapped in bedcovers warm
rolled, regarding window view
twin towers in their testament
of global commerce gone askew
8:45, eyes still blurred
drugged down from dark and dreamful sleep
could not process what i saw
a burning gash five miles deep
i measured it with my mind
mangled steel and depth of flame
smoke blackening bluish sky
the plane had hit with deadly aim
steadily, it conquered me
that my eyes were seeing true
before i could digest it in
came the crash, plane number two
witnessing, i saw the scene
plane flew in, direct impact
bedroom window was the frame
drama of destructive act
all alone i had no choice
terror tried to possess
so i shoved it deep inside
found a mask for my distress
i felt the tension lodge in me
grappling with what to do
bore down upon my shoulders
bruising in the black and blue
the towers were my nightlight
companion to my daily rest
an anchor to the city
a constant in my lonely quest
death summoned me to this place
my father died, left the task
to comprehend a lifetime
and free the demons of the past
now, death comes for many more
their screams too far away to hear
but close enough to breathe the ash
like baby powder in the air
soon came one, then the other
each tower shook and shivered
concrete compressing all inside
panic spread, a flooding river
stunned by the unfolding
crisis that was far too near
some distance from the trauma
i needed to get out of here
my brother calls in tearful voice
end to end we were not close
we made a plan to connect
i’d walk north, he’d walk south
up broadway i trod along
my legs already aching
uncertain of what transpired
and what i’d undertaken
i passed impromptu gatherings
standing by a radio
eager for some scrap of news
full of fear, the unknown
some were wearing gas masks
fleeing from the concrete crush
proof of their survival
bandages and fine white dust
fearing i could not progress
but barely walked far at all
i pause to restore my strength
then i hear my brother’s call
united now we had the will
to make it through this dreadful day
even though we were unclear
of how we’d travel all the way
six mile trek remained ahead
city now could not assist
public transport all shut down
only choice was to persist
we walked the sum of forty blocks
police had speakers blaring
“it is not safe, please go north”
some listened, some uncaring
yellow-orange caught my eye
the glow of flames ascending
panic gripped but fear was false
just sausage cooking unattended
feeling foolish i turned away
yet still there was the tension
phantom perils taunted me
a global apprehension
i saw it in their faces
and felt it in the dusty air
new yorkers had been broken
yet, were not beyond repair
when we finally took a rest
we stopped to call our mother
to let her know we were safe
and we’d found each other
“ask upon your guardian
angels” she told each of us
they will guide you safely home
know in them, place your trust
out of options to explore,
decided to give luck a try
hitch a ride to home uptown
right away someone came by
we thanked our angels deeply
praised the mom we found so wise
because just like she told us
ask, solutions will arise
delivered near my brother’s
home a few blocks away
soon we were sheltered safe
finally could release the day
inside, t.v. insisted
to replay the cradle fall
drilling in the danger
of a time beyond recall
i’ve never felt fear before
breathe moist upon my neck
paralyze me with the world
not know what to expect
i’m grateful that i still exist
i mourn for those who perished
i’ll testify each day i live
is one i’ll always cherish.
1.11.02
© Eliza Alys Young
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